I know so many people who have been touched by cancer. It seems to be everywhere! And yet when I my doctor brought up the possibility that it might be what I was dealing with, I was shocked!
My doctor told me the Monday before Christmas that I needed surgery as soon as possible. He said that if it wasn’t the week before Christmas, he would do it sooner. He said that he my bleeding, the bloodwork, and the ultrasound caused him to be very concerned that I had endometrial cancer. Then he started talking about treatment, a gynecological oncologist, and other things that I never really heard…
To be honest, my bigger concern at first was, what if I have to have a hysterectomy! Physically that would be difficult. Emotionally it would be devastating! Then, I started to try to figure out how I would deal with it…logistically. Who would do the wife/mom stuff that I take care of? Who would teach my students? Everything was just so overwhelming!
My family and friends all began to storm heaven with their prayers. I couldn’t believe the sense of relief that I felt because of their prayers! I felt that even if I did have cancer, everything would be fine.
On the day of my surgery, I was calm and prepared for whatever God had planned for me. Everything went very well. The doctor told my husband that what they had seen on the ultrasound was not there! There was still bleeding and a thick endometrium lining, but nothing like he had seen from the previous images. He said that everything looked good and a few days later, the biopsy confirmed that everything was normal.
Last week, I went in for my post-op follow up. Again, my doctor said that given my bleeding, bloodwork, and ultrasound, he thought he was going to AT LEAST see pre-cancer cells. What a sense of relief for all of us.
I know that God ALWAYS answers our prayers. Sometimes we don’t get the answer we want, but all prayers are answered. I’m so grateful that in this case, God’s answer was what we prayed for.
But, I’m also wondering, why me? Why was I the lucky one? I almost have a sense of guilt about it. So, I am currently saying a Novena to St. Peregrine for those fighting cancer. I’m also offering up any worry about my fertility with the hopes that it will give someone the peace they need. (I’m pretty sure I’ll continue to worry, but I’m really going to try to put it on the back burner for at least the next nine days to focus on this novena.)
If you’re interested in joining me, click the link.